I am so stressed out!

I just can't hardly function. Jimmy's employer is making me insane. They laid them all off on the 17th of March. Then they called him in every day and told them they were back to work on the 23rd. Then they laid them all off again on April 6th. They haven't paid our insurance and the cancellation was backdated to October 10, 2008. We have been on the local news regarding the situation. I have contacted the Insurance Regulators of PA, the Attorney General, and the Dauphin Co. District Attorney. The DA is doing an investigation. They are the only ones giving me any kind of hope at all. However, I get home from taking the girls to the park to play to find a message on my answering machine from Jimmy's supervisor stating that he is to report to work on Monday morning because they are "starting back up" and if he has any questions he is to give him a call before 3:00 today. Well guess what? Jimmy left with his Dad and his brother this morning for Potter County and won't be home until Wednesday. WEDNESDAY!!!!! And I have no way to contact him before 3:00 today so that he can call in there and talk to those stupid people. I am so sick to death of all of this drama that I just want to sit in the corner and cry. GGGRRRRRR!!!! Very frustrated

A Birthday Invitation

I wanted to share the invitation that I made for Nevaeh's 5th birthday. I gave her some stamp and color choices and let her pick out what she wanted. I then used my Close To My Heart Originals Card Confidence Program to pick a layout for the card and put it all together. I used several different color variations for the cupcake and the sprinkles, but the design was all the same. I then stamped the inside and put all of the party information in there. Nevaeh wanted to help so she put her name inside each of the cards. I was very proud of her dedication. She sat at the table for and waited patiently for me to get them done so she could help. I can't believe my little girl is 5 already!

Love you, Grandma

It has been a rough week. Last Thursday morning I received the dreaded call that I had been expecting for some time now. My dear Grandma Bucy passed away that morning. She would have been 80 years old on the 21st of March. She had been growing weaker and more tired everyday for about the past 6 weeks. I am so saddened that I wasn't able to get out to West Virginia to see her just one more time, however, with my broken leg and some weather issues when I was planning to go, it just wasn't possible. I am so thankful that I went as often as I could and she was able to meet and spend time with not only me, but both of my baby girls. The first time that she met Sage, in the above pictures, she called my Aunt Luanne after we left and told her that Sage was such a nice baby. She knew that I loved her without a doubt and that is a comfort to me. I also know that she is now in heaven with Honey. It has been such a long time that she pushed on without him. I can only imagine the joy and happiness that they found when they were able to be together again. And I am so excited to know that they are up there doting over Holden together. That makes me smile. I will miss her terribly, but I know that she is happy and whole again. I love you Grandma!

So I wanted to post a couple more pictures of a layout that I finished. More of the Sage and Nevaeh coloring day. My cast is now off and I am in a walking boot so I am sure that my uninterrupted scrapping time is over for quite some time. That makes me sad. I really want to crank out some stuff. Poor Sage has been neglected! I have her whole first year to do! I started going out of order and just doing what I could, when I could. I need to get a handle on it all and get cracking!! My next scheduled project is to make invitations for Nevaeh's birthday party. I'll post them when I'm done!

Happy Birthday Baby Boy

It is so hard to believe that my baby boy would be 7 today. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. It was unimaginably hard at first, however, I know now that I wouldn't change a thing. Not one day would be different. You may think that I am nuts for saying that. What mother in her right mind would choose, if she could go back and do it all again, to have her first born baby not come home, but go with God instead? As much as I wanted my son and was so devastated to have lost him, God knew what He was doing. I believe it was our greatest testament and show of our faith that we have faced. I think it was the closest that Jimmy and I have ever been. It was heart wrenching and horrible, however, because of it all, I have been blessed with two beautiful daughters. We would never have pursued adoption if Holden had survived, therefore I wouldn't have my Nevaeh. Sage may still have happened. Who knows about that, however, it wouldn't be the same.

So today I say Happy Birthday to my Holden James. Mommy loves you so much. I know you are safe and happy and loved and that makes every day just a little sweeter.

A Layout of Sage

So I finally felt pretty good and the house wasn't in too much disarray so I took advantage of the girls spending time with Grandma and Pappy and got some layouts done. I LOVE using my Close To My Heart "How To" books to get ideas. I had some pictures laying around of Sage and Nevaeh coloring. It was the first time that Sage ever attempted to do it and this was the first picture that I snapped. She had just crawled up to the table and was getting ready to get down to business. I will post more pictures soon!!

My sweet baby girls....

It is so hard for me to believe that my two baby girls are growing up so quickly. Nevaeh is almost 5 and Sage will be 2 in June. I can even fathom that just 5 years ago, it was just Jimmy and I. It is completely amazing how drastically our lives have changed in 5 years. Nevaeh is getting ready to head off to Kindergarten and Sage is too smart for her britches!! I can't believe that Nevaeh is sitting around drawing and painting pictures and writing her name on everything. Sage is just too much!! She says so much and it absolutely amazes me. She goes non-stop and climbs on everything. Nevaeh was, and is still, such a loving, cuddly child. Not Sage. She will pause to give you a quick kiss and then she if off on the run again. Nevaeh falls down and it is as if the world is coming to an end. Not Sage. She just says "whoa" and jumps up and off she goes. Crazy kids. Growing and learning so much every day. They sometimes make me a bit crazy, but I love them more than life itself and I can't imagine what I would do without them.